scar.

you hurt me and keep on hurting me but u don't realize it. once you realize it, you stop do it and i'm happy about it. then you hurt me again and again at the same place where you have done it before. it become deeper from time to time.  i want to be better than yesterday so i forgive everything but yet the scar is still there. it is not easy to let it be like that. it is a scar and it will stay there forever. scar is a scar. it will not hurt anymore if you pour something onto it unless it is a wound. if you still remember where you got the scar from so why not me? why i can't remember it? 

banana oh banana

second day masa trip tue, kitaorang nak mencuba sesuatu yg baru and extreme la kononnya. hahaha. cuba teka? banana boat!!! extreme ke? ala sikit-sikit la bagi perempuan ayu macam kitaorang nie. cerita sebelum naik banana boat. fuhh malam sebelum tido plan nak bagun qiam sesama tapi yang terjadi adalah sebaliknya. tue pun nasib baik subuh bukan subuh gajah. hahaha. bangun-bangun dah subuh. terkejut kita. apa pasal jadi macam nie???!!! semua blurrr je. hahahaha. kelakar la jugak. nak kene que for the toilet and so on la. dah toiletnya satu je. orang ada sebelas. memeang tak kelam sangat la kan?? macam mana boleh bangun lagi satu cerita. syarifah yang bangun dulu. katanya teringat dekat instagram dia. dia ada pos gambar malam tue so nak tengik la takut-takut ada orang like ke apa ke. so dia pun bangun. tengok phone, mak oiii dah pukul enam lebih. kejut semua orang. yang tidur dalam air cond pun kena kejut ye. 
ada kisah kelakar nak cerita. malam tue, miss M tidur jauh sikit dari kitaorg yang duduk bergelimpangan depan tv nie. tup tap bagun pagi "apa pasal dia nie? dekat pulak sofa nie. semalam jauh." cuba teka. sanggup tue tolak sofa bagi dekat dengan kitaorang. takut la tue. hahahaha. banyak gelak jugak kitaorang sebenarnya tau. hah, dah habis solat, terus kitaorang buat operasi dapur, which is cooking. riuh rendah macam kenduri tapi more calm then yesterday punya lunch la, of course. ada yang masak sambal nasi lemak, ada yang prepare barang, ada yang potong buah, ada yang panaskaan spaghetti semalam. ada yang keluarkan cake. lots of work, tapi saya??? salin baju!!! dah get ready nak gi pantai. orang terebih excited is ME.  then get ready to the beach with boxes of food. macam ada program je. hahaha. 
samapai-sampai je ada brother tue offer banana boat. kitaorang nak duduk pun tak sempat lagi ie beb oiii. cari tempat nak duduk pun satu hal. dah duduk, makan pulak, lepas makan baru naik banana boat. (sebab tue la kene tinggal kat tengah laut tue hah) makan aje, syarifah dah kena layan banyak kerenah. haish. "syarifah, nak cake!" "syarifah nak air", "jap-jap, nak roti dengan sosej la." macam-macam. yang jadi macam budak tadikanya of course la saya. hehehe(muka tak malu betul kan?) jom3! naik banan boat! nego session lama sangat. nie sume si cicap punya keje. kitaorang steady je tunggu kat tikar tue. dalam hati, dub dab dub dab, kita tak pandai berenang so macam mana nanti? laju ke dia bawak? boleh jadi prof. dah sebabnya banya sangat persoalan dan posibilities yang boleh dikaji. buat masuk research paper nanti. hehehe tue baru kita belum lagi persoalan orang lain. syarifah and farah tak naik sebab diaorang ada sebab tersendiri la. tanya banyak-banyak buat apa. haish. 
naik banana boat nie kelakar, nak naik pun dah satu hal kecoh, first time so tahu-tahu je la. nak susun temapt duduk pun satu hal. yang tak dapat anik lagi satu hal. tue cicap punya hal. dia naik dia jatuh. duduk je tergelongsor turun. hahahaha. gelak je yang mampu. naik dengan excited nya. brother tue bawak slow je. macam naik kereta dengan shamie-shamie. eh, tak koy shamie lagi laju la. tapi ibaratnya naik kereta atas air. kelajuan? biasa je. tak nak bagi kena saman. hah, lagak dia macam tue la. ala tak pe la slow pun, asalkan dah gain experience kat situ. cantik sangat ciptaan Allah, perfect, tak ada cacat cela. takda apa yang nak komen. subhanallah, segala puji bagi Allah, tuhan semesta alam. Dia Pencipta terhebat. semua cantik, tenang je tengok. rasa diri kerdil sangat bila duduk atas banana boat tue, tengok betapa luas lautan nie. tue baru pantai dekat PD. 
sambil-sambil tengok pemandangan tue, tetiba boat brother tue dah ke depan, kitaorang kat belakang dah bising, "ohh, macam nie naik banana boat nye. tinggal kejap,nanti dia datang amik la" adoiii nie la jadinya kalau first timer. tali banana dengan boat tue putus sebab ktaorang "ringan" sangat. hahaha gelak je brother tue. kitaorang pun apa lagi gelak jugak la. sapa suruh makan banyak. aishhh tahu tak kitaorang nie tak stop makan. selagi ada peluang, makan je. 
dah habis main banana boat, kita main air. excited tapi syarifah tak masuk pun dalam air. dia amik gambar kitaorang je. then dia duduk tengok-tengok kitaorang. masa main air tue. semua excited. ada yang nak belajar berenang dengan miss puff, ada jugak yang nak belajar terapung. hah, belajar la sampai pandai. naik main air makan kejaap. ehhh lama jugak la makn. ada yang termakan pasir sikit, adajugak yg minum tapi tak perasan ada ranting kecik dalam air. fuhh, seronok la beb. jap-jap. masuk air kejap. air lagi. tak ke penat nak layan sekumpulan budak kecik nie? then salin baju, jumpa monyet kecik, kuda hensem, minum cococnut shake, cari souvenir untuk family. hehehe. amik gambar la of course. happy trip ever. hope to have this kind of trip again and again. this friendship is priceless to me. 

p/s: tak sabar nak cerita dekat family especially my mum! 

trip again!!!

really excited to tell story about it but before that let me tell u. not all we plan gonna happened smoothly as what we plan because He is the best Planner. this time, we went to port dickson. a really beautiful place to remember with lots of sweet memories. we went there from our university at 8.30 am in the Saturday. a journey of 11 happening friends started here. went by cars, one was avanza and the other one is shamie-shamie's car, myvi. lots of problems happened before we went there. our planning didn't work at last minute and cars that we supposed to rent was cancelled by the owner but we all manage to solve it even a bit emotional. singing in a car, chit-chat, gossiping, lose track, all of these taught us to be more patient and handle everything wisely. kalau gelabah memang takkan jumpa jalan la, beb. seriously and frankly speak it was a very beautiful memories for me. betul kata orang, hidup masa remeja nie kena betul-betul manfaatkan. cari kawan. cari sahabat, cari teman, bukan cari lawan. nanti dah tua at least ou have something sweet and chill to be remembered, right? sebelum sampai, singgah RnR mana entah. beli air and ambil peta. hah, ala-ala kat oversea je. ada map bagai. macam tak boleh baca je signboard kan? eh, bukan la. just to make sure we are in the right path je. bukannya over pun. haish. ada je la korang nie, kan??? okay dah ambil map, kitaorang start back the journey with love. masa on the way to that place, i can see how beautiful is the creation of Allah. subhanallah. cantik, indah. super dupper amazing la. sampai giant! giant apa tak tahu sebabnya macam baru bukak je. dah macam main game dah. semua dibahagikan kepada bebebrapa group which each of them must ensure that the things that were assigned to them really in the trolley before the payment being made. nampak macam kelam kabut sikit sebab nak kejar masa tapi sebenarnya tak kalut sangat pun. semua steady je. siap beli stokin cantik-cantik lagi. konon nak tido pakai stokin la apa la. girls are like that. dah siap shopping, jom teruskan ke PD!!! oppsss, tak lagi la. tengok sale kasut kejap, beli iceblog dulu then beli ice cream baru boleh gerak. hah, nak gerak, barang pulak kena susun mana duduk dalam avanza, mana duduk dekat shamie's. fuhhh, kesian dekat syarifah, lots of things need to be handled. macam bawak budak tadika berjalan. kejap nak wee-wee. kejap nak air sejuk. kejap terlepas jalan. haish. penat weii. dah habis part tue. kitaorang pun terus ke rumah then syarifah bawak pusing-pusing kawasan rumah tue sampai shamie-shamie ckp "nie nak pergi mana sebenarnya? pening la kita tengok jalan sama." kitaorag dah gelak-gelak sambil nyanyi pulak tu. kesian shamie. sambil tunggu makcik hantar kunci, kitaorang cari ice nak buat air nanti. then, yaya cari daun limau purut untuk resipi dia. entah apa entah. saya tak ambil tahu sangat sebab tak pandai sangat masak so nak campur tangan nie malas la sikit takut apa-apa salah nanti ada la yang tak diingini akan berlaku. lebih baik kite cegah sebelum berlaku. dah dapat anak kunci, masuk je rumah semua sibuk tengok tempat. semua nampak happy je. ada air-conditioners mana tak happy. then rest kejap je. salin baju je kut. terus masak sebab semua dah lapar tahap apa kita pun tak tahu tapi muka dah macam pokok tak cukup air je semua but yet everyone was contribute bila masak. semua orang ada keje masing-masing dah sebab hari jumaat before pergi tue memang dah assign kerja. mudah dan cepat kata kan. makan banyak gila. bajet kita orang terlebih dari cukup siap boleh pulangkan balik dekat semua tapi masing-masing decide nak makan lg nanti hujung bulan ke apa ke. apa-apa je a. kita on je bab makan nie. lepas makan, ada yang tengik tv , ada yang dah tido dalam bilik. maklumlah, teramat kenyang dan kepenatan. me? of course tido!!! petang, bagun tengok farah and syarifah dah siapkan cucur. eh, shifa pun tolong jugak tau. kita? hehehe. tolong tengok je. happy je tengok diaorang masak. lepas solat asar, get ready ke pantai! happy sangat sampai tak terkata. i love beach so much. no words can describe it. petang-petang, ramai sangat orang tambah-tambah hujung minggu. memang macam nie la kan. posing, amik gambar cantik-cantik. jalan sikit, stoppppp ambil gambar lagi and lagi. singgah pasar malam then ke secret recipe for chocolate indulgence!!!! cantik sangat cake nya!!
malam tue solat jemaah and tahlil for miss S's mum who passed away week ago. sedikit usrah then makan. tengok main agenda is makan actually. supposed ada game tapi semua nak tengok movie sebab penat and so on, so tengok movie je la jawabnya. sambil makan lagi. end up dengan tido, nak bagun qiam kata biro dakwah. and nak tido pun macam apa. semua okay je tido kat man-mana tapi ada yang suruh masuk bilik la apa la. ye la, basically, takut ada orang tak selesa tapi alhamdulillah. semua selesa. 

syarifah yang amik gambar so she is not in.

p/s: tired. gonna continue next time. bye. lots of love. xoxo

gonna be okay?

lots of problems. never expected this to be happened. ukhuwah yang sekian lama terjalin diuji. itu tandanya Allah sayang kita kan. i really hope that everything gonna be okay. ukhuwah benda yang sangat mulia. even me myself tal sanggup nak rosakkan. 

friendship trip

this trip was really amazing. we just held it years ago, maybe or one year ago. i could not remember that, but the main thing i was happy. that is the only thing that i could remember. the trip really a friendship one. why I say like that? before we go, we have planned everything to strengthen the relationship. lots of things happened before we went there. few of us had class which was held suddenly an at the evening. our plan was totally ruined but yet we still continued. we went to bagan lalang, sepang. can't really imagine how a group girl can drove at night in such that area. a bit scared, tired but still went on. we had our barbeque session after we arrived, then ate together. having spaghetti made by dora and tea iced by miss m and so on. we enjoyed that day so much. the next day, our activities were at beach. i made a mistake when choose a place where the water was a bit dirty but yet we still enjoyed our day. we played games. taking pictures as memories and wrote our names on the sand. we played like there was no problems.release tensions. we had planned for another friendship trip, we are going to port dickson. do pray for our best. 
p/s: pictures can't be uploaded due to privacy of certain people.