motivation.

alhamdulillah. sangat bersyukur dengan nikmat Allah. diberi jutaan kesemptan untuk menjadi insan yang lebih baik. sibuk? setiap orang pun sibuk. tak gitu? i', busy right now but i'm still trying to have few minutes to write. i know there is no reader but i still wan to dedicated something. i am busy with lots of quizzes, homework, presentation, papers and so on. it almost the end of the semester. frankly speak, this semester is a bit though for me but i'm trying hard to go through it. insha Allah i can do it. few weeks ago, I've decided to go back to my hometown, meet my parents and get more motivational speech from them. alhamdulillah. I managed to. i already in the half journey of my life when i think about giving up. i went back and tell my mum what i feel and ask her opinion. she said to me that life is like that. we are tested everytime. it makes our life more beautiful. beautiful???(wondering, right) beautiful because we are praying for our best, we seek for His help, beautiful because we get to know how our prophet live before us and how hard is his effort to bring Islam to us and so on. see, how beautiful is our life. mom said that never give up. test are for us, to make us become more though and see the world in other aspects.see how big is His love to you. don't see and keep on asking why it should be me? you are the choosen one for the test. don't ask to much and just endure with it. i'm happy when i can share my feeling with my mum. she's kind of friend of mine. see, i got problems but i still have a time with my mum. i can have her opinion. sharing what i think and so on. thank you, ummi!!!

p/s: mood busy. everything need to be settled before final.

ASK AND KEEP ASKING

macam pelik je tajuk kan? tak pelik pun sebenarnya. tanya dan terus bertanya, itulah manusia. kadang-kadang sikap nie elok untuk kita tapi sometimes tak ye. contohnya I, I kena repeat paper, then kawan asyik tanya asal la kena repeat paper. terkilan tak? kita bukan tak usaha macam awak tapi bukan rezeki kita. sometimes pun I terfikir boleh ke cakap macam tue padahal usaha I tak banyak pun. I'm tired. letih sangat. I nak jadi rajin macam uolls jugak tapi still rasa malas. I tak tahu nak buat apa untuk motivate diri. my friends cakap I dah rajin tapi I don't feel so. entah-entah dia nak pujuk hati I je.

I decide to not tell everyone about my studies because people are asking nonsense and keep on asking. I'm tired to answer, not all people understand people like me. they just know, "hey, she's repeater"! sedih hanya Allah je yang tahu. kalau boleh semua orang nak pandai, betul tak? tapi tak semua mampu macam uolls.I realize some of them are avoiding me. that make my life worse. I keep on thinking why it's happen to me? am I too stupid to be friend of? even they are trying much than uolls did. it's not their turn yet. they might get something better for themselves one day. I love motivational quotes as they inspire me a lot. once I'm down I will read it and think about those words. I always want to live happy and full of motivation. I want to be a person who can inspire herself and others. I want to spread colours! 

BOOKS!!!!

I nie boleh diktegorikan sebagai org yang suka buku tapi membaca tue tak tahu la nak cakap sebabnya kalau cakap rajin macam puji diri sendiri je tapi I can read books and I don't mind to spend my time on books. sejak kecil kot, dilatih bak kata orang. my parents suka anak-anak dia membaca.kalau nak pergi mana-mana my parents will ensure their children bring books. bawak yang penting. baca boleh cuba cari masa. kalau takda masa takpa tapi kalau ada masa tapi kiat tak bawak buku bersama itu parah.  my parents bagus. i'm proud to have them as my parents. i'm sure everyone is proud of their parents. my grannies pun suka cucu dia membaca. kalau bagi duit, dia tak cakap "duit nie beli la apa-apa ye" dia akan cakap "duit nie buat beli buku tau. nak beli gula-gula ke apa ke guna duit nie(bg duit lg)" i miss my grannies. dua-dua dah meninggal al-fatihah for them. i just have the opportunity to spend time with my mum's dad but not my dad's. he was so kind. baik sangat. kadang-kadang terfikir ada lagi tak lelaki yng baik macam dia. enough with that story. books. i'm in love with books. i prefer to have book as for my present tapi tak kan la kita nak demand. tak gitu. buku sebenarnya senang je nak jaga and dia tak macam benda lain. sometimes benda yang kita baca kiat akan ingat or amalkan or tell others. dapat pahala free-free dekat orang yang bagi hadiah tue kan. I bersyukur dapat hadiah even bukan buku. thanks to all my friends and families yang bagi hadiah. 

more story about books. last year if I'm not mistaken. I went to Big Bad Wolf and spend 200. fuhh. lega sebab baucer tue tak membazir. and of course I'm happy because my books' collection is getting more and more. I tak amik short semester hari tue and guess what. I spend almost my time on that books.best. ada yang lawak ada yang sedih. and ada yang more to information. I hope I can go there this year. i want to buy more books.

p/s: nak upload gambar dri phone malas. (last year big Bad wolf) sorry.

PRK OH PRK.....

alang- alang ada masa nie, kita luah semua ye. ok hari tue, ada election dekat universiti. so each fakulti pun kena join. dekat tempat kita orang tak panggil fakulti tau. panggil kuliyyah kau. arab sikit. biar tak belajar di negara arab tapi kitaorg still ada element arab di situ. hahaha. macam apa je org yg xplain nye. ok citer pasal prk nie kan, jgn nak salah faham sangat la. prk stand for pilihan raya kampus ok? bukannya pilihan raya kecil. hehehe. ok. one of my friend masuk election tue tau. serious tabik spring kat dia. dekat kuliyyah tue, orang hebat-hebat kot bertanding. dia pun hebat je. cumanya setakat kenal nie tak sangka dia bole masuk election besar camnie. okay time election nie, mcm-mcm benda berlaku. it's kinda of first timer for me. i tak bertanding pun tapi lagak macam bertanding je kan? first timer la sebabnya jadi penyokong kuat kot. actually saya bukan penyokong kuat pun. kawan kan so tolong la sikit-sikit apa yang patut. sekali muka i and the geng je kat booth tu hah. penat tapi pengalaman tue yang menyebabkan penat tue hilang. sweet moments gdn kawan-kawan. masa nie baru la tahu sapa kawan dan sapa lawan. boleh tak uolls pikir. kita org nie org perempuan nak panjat-panjat pasang bendera memang tak la kan. nak gantung apa-apa ke. bila mintak tolong ngn brothers(bukan adik beradik ye.) boleh pulak dia cakap maaf tak bole tolong sebab dah sokong orang lain. nie hah. kepala hotak kau. kecik-kecik dah pandai ek. tolong je la. kalau jumpa orang yg memerlukan pertolongan kat mane-mane, korang tolong tak? ke korang tengok dulu bangsa apa, warna kulit, anak mata cantik ke tak and so on baru nak tolong. agak-agak la uolls oiii. tolong nie tak kira parti, bangsa, warna kulit and so on. tolong-menolong tue kan amaln mulia. takda nya kalau awak tolong, orang cakap awak berpaling tadah ke apa ke. tolong je. kalau nak sebut kuat-kuat. "saya tolong je dia, saya tak sokong dia". puas hati? lelaki yang macam nie la buat I rasa menyampah nak kenal dengan lelaki taw. baik tak kenal. tunjuk sikit awak tue gentleman. hal nie macam big issue jugak la bagi kitorang masa prk hari tu sebab kitaorang takda tenaga kerja. samapai ada kawan yang terpaksa ponteng class nak tolong. benda tue tak patut bagi I tapi ikut orang l. maybe they can handle the class and bagi diorg berkorban sikit demi kawan takpe. alhamdulillah. ada lagi shabat yng mcm nie. kawan I tak menamg pun tpi kitaorang bangga sebab kitaorang dah cuba seday upaya dan kitaorg paham. adat bertanding memeang macam tue. mungkin Allah janjikan yang lebih baik untuk dia. 

ada hati nak...

ok. sebenarnya tajuk tue saja-saja tulis. sebab kalau nak fikir tajuk mmg tak menulis la kan. even kalau nak buat essay ke apa ke i will start writing first then think about the tittle. ok nak citer pasal semester nie. amik skill. cube teka saya amik skill apa? most of my friends ckp masak.

sekali pandang macam seronok je memasak kan? =)

 oiittt. ada muka nak masak ke masalahnya? nak masak kat rumah pun dah kecoh sekampung. nak masak kat universiti kecoh satu Batu Caves. hahahaha. tak la. nie kan skill, so tak kisah la pandai ke tak ke. masuk je. u want to learn something, right? so just go. don't be shy cat la. student yg masuk skills nie, most of them tak tahu apa-apa. diaorang nak belajar mcm uolls jgk. ok...masak mmg reject awal-awal sebab kalau masak mudah gabra, gubra dan seangkatan dengannya. u know what, my mum has said it to me "nanti dah besar, ingat semua nak beli ke? semua org bermula dngan tak pandai ye. awak kecik dulu pun tak pandai jalan, sekarang ok je jalan" fuuuuhhh SENTAP. actually malas pun ada (tue hah..jujur taw.)hahahha. my mum tak sebut "nanti kawen" hah tengok. my parents pantang cakap pasal cinta cintun, kawen dan seangkatan tentera dengannya. bukan apa, belajar tak habis lagi sibuk nak pikir kawen. ape u ingat kawen nie senang? my parents lebih selesa kitaorg belajar dulu. fokus apa nak capai. nanti dah ada tanggugjawab lain susah. hoiii mak cik! tadi nak citer amik skill apa kan? nie melalut ke tempat lain. maklumlah dah lama tak menulis. semua nak citer. then i ingat nak amik menjahit. sewing uolls. pastue takde rezeki. vacancy full. sedih la jugak tapi tak pe. nasib bik jugak la sebab menjahit nie banyak keje sebenarnya.ada kawan ajak amik swimming! wowww happy je dengar sekali tengok badan kat cermin. ehhh malu la. nampak lemak nanti. padahalnya masuk swimming nak soh kurus. but still malu.

lastly i pilih kaunseling!!!! best sangat! happy je masuk class nie. i tertunggu nak gi class skill. bole melukis and so on la. dalam class nie jugak i know how to appreciate people. i mean more appreciate...insha Allah benda berguna untuk I sekarang and in the future. 

best sangat.